Wednesday, May 21, 2014
“She was looking for something I could never give her." Again his dark eyes bored into Julia's mind. "You have something of the same about you, young woman. Take my advice: Don't think you will find it in another person. You won't. It's not there. You must find it in yourself.” ― Iain Pears, The Dream of Scipio ~ Mia /While suffering from writer's block and insomnia.I fell onto this msg and beautiful photo. Simplicity at its finest.#Halfway2Forever
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
Unlikely to have anything in common/ How is it that opposites, could attract?/ When one glistens brightly as a setting sun/While thee other rises quietly/ A full moon,decorated by surrounding stars/ How is it that they exist so closely/ But still apart, live so far?/ And yet they compliment each other's nature/ Two elements created under God./ One providing fire to keep life in rotation/ As thee other, springs living water where ever needed/ Assuring,life isnt always as complicated/ As to the moment that their actually feeling./ Feeling to having all their questions answered./ Not tomorrow, not next month or the year after./ But that in real time, right now/ Searching direction from their heavenly creator./As to where to find their promised puzzle piece/Outside of their mind filled dreams/Where in reality, could that likely piece be? by Overland Afo/ May 20,2014 more practice poems to get me use to writing in truth.
Saturday, May 17, 2014
I usually use this blog to write my poems and too pretty much spill my guts out on my views on love. And though I will remain true to that subject in this post. I hope you find somewhat of a "Poetic Justice" breakthrough that I'm choosing to release while I vent away and proceed with my mixing things up. :)
In the last year I've managed to put my foot in my mouth when running into my married friends. Unassuming that by me asking the following questions would turn an innocent inquiry into an awkward moment that begins and ends like this;
Me: How's everything?Kids?Spouse?
Friend's reply: Oh yeah good...
You didnt know ?
Friend's reply: We're separated and/are getting divorced..
Me:Awwww I didn't know...
Friend: Its Ok
Three times unknowningly getting myself into those type of awkward conversations, sucks big time.Not at all comfortable for either party. But prior to Friday's reveal of yet another friend that's just gotten recently divorced. I found myself so annoyed about seeing and hearing this growing divorce trend happening through people I love and while having my over the phone "Pow Wows" with my sister's Caroline Ulugia and Crystal Ainuu about men, the goal of being ready for that step of committing to someone and raising a family.
I found myself so upset at even desiring to gain the blessing of being married to someone. When hanging in the balance are the possibilities that, that person could leave you (me) at any given second. Especially if they didnt have it all figured out what their role would entail. Partly that they'd not only enter the covenant of marriage to experience pass the "Honeymoon Stage." But that they'd actually honor marriage by sticking around to add happiness to their spouse's well being and life. Not solely in it just to possess a "Take away Happiness type of Attitude" for themselves or "What's in it for me" mindset.
Well like I said I was pretty annoyed which grew into anger for my future spouse (Who's identity remains a mystery). Exclaiming to my sisters "What & where in the hell is this guy at?" "He has to have taken the most longest,unpaved and unmapped route to finding me known to all mankind and I can't do anything about it, I am so mad at him." Causing my sisters to bust a gut to my rantings.
And I guess maybe the following could be considered the "Poetic Justice" part of this post which is despite his unwelcome delayed arrival in claiming me. I'm still standing.
Throughout all the past crushes that have overlooked me as being datable, through the very few potentials that didnt pass the kissing phazes of our association in hopes of creating a relationship and even up to the males that have moved onto marrying other exceptional women who had that "It Thing" those same males were looking for in a spouse. I'm still standing which has to count for something, right?
Either way my perspective on dating has evolved and I see the wisdom of the Lord and know that where ever my spouse is abd whatever he's doing. The time will come when we will finally come together in love and thats what makes this phaze bearable. Marriage is worth fightin for eternally to gain eternity. Even if everyone and their mama is getting divorced. Doesn't mean thats how my marriage will turn out.